> I actually found it on someones webpage, it speaks volumes..
> I named it the Cube...

To quote the Emerald City guardsman, "That's a horse of a different color."

> Im not expecting you to do anything with that, or me. I would
> just like to know though...
> Do you feel the same?

In some ways I do. But at the same time I'm trying my best to just let go and move on. I really, really want to move on with my life. Because I know we both deserve better, and can ultimately do better; we can each find somebody we're much more compatible with.

We can rave all we want about the mutual infatuation and mystical "connections", but the bottom line is that we just don't get along on a practical level. I've been down that road before and saw the same warning signs: things cycle between intimate and nasty, everything taken personally, making fun of my friends, always interrupting me, etc. I feel I can't be myself around you.

I'm never going to move in with somebody who wouldn't let me have something as personal as my altar in my own home. And I do not want children, let alone with somebody who I fear might try to use the existence of my own child to manipulate me into needlessly damning my own religion, severing friendships, or getting rid of other things in my life. I've seen too many men live "quiet lives of desperation", and I'm not going to let it happen to me.

As I said in my letter, I don't believe in the idea of a "soul mate". I don't believe that there's one person I'm predestined to be with, and that I only have a one-shot deal, nor that there's no opportunity to find somebody once I pass a certain age. My longest relationships were always those that started off slow; the fast ones always ended just as fast as they took off. I have no doubt in my mind that I can (and will) fall in love with somebody again, and namely with somebody I'm much more compatible with in more ways than one, and am completely comfortable being around. It's not necessarily going to be the next woman I see, but I know it can happen. Likewise, I know you can find a romantic, low-maintenance, spiritual, handsome man that you're happy to be with.

This has been hard on the both of us. We've both been crying. We've both had thoughts that wander back to each other as we each lie there alone in bed at night. But I can't continue with this. I still care about you enough to say: please, move on. As I said under your picture, "May you find happiness, angel."

[trapezoid]

"If you love someone, set them free." - Sting